I have been reflecting, today, as to what kind of Mother, Wife, Sister, Daughter, Friend I am. How do I want to be? I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. It's so easy to get caught up in the perfection race. Let me just tell you...my house is a wreck. I'm not organized. We just got our Christmas tree up and it's not decorated, yet. I just ordered my cards. Yes, that's ordered. Not out in the mail. :-) My friends set the bar really high. I was happy to go to a Christmas party, yesterday, where they had Christmas crafts, so Olivia could enjoy crafting and I didn't have to do any of it!!! I reflect on things I've done in the past few months that have taken up extreme amounts of my time. As Stephen tells me, I do too much. I need to slow down....start saying, "No". Yeah, it's not in my genes to say "No" or to not put every bit of my time into making my friends and their families feel special. Note to self- After Olivia's party on Saturday, don't host anymore parties for a long, long time.
As we prepare for this Christmas and New Years, it's easy to get caught up in all the wrong things. Please, God help me focus on all the right things...Olivia and Stephen, preparing my heart to celebrate Jesus' birth, peace with who I am and will never be, giving to the less fortunate, etc. The list goes on and on.
Life is filled with ups and downs...preparing for a Christmas without your precious baby boy, saying goodbye to your husband as he deploys for a year, Olivia's adorable giggle, being reunited with family for the Holidays, dirty dishes and clutter, losing jobs and businesses, a husband that cleans up after dinner, a husband that doesn't clean up after dinner, a failing economy, a great workout, hanging out with amazing friends at Beale, poop on the carpet, etc.
From this point on my blog will be real, not one dimensional, as I think it has been so far. Along with the joy and fun will be sadness and stress. I plan to show you all of it.
3 comments:
Really great blog entry! I am praying for you sis (as always)! I am so looking forward to doing some cooking/baking with you in a couple weeks...partay in the byrdkitchen! Les Deux Soeurs is back in business!
I have been saying a pray for you every night... I hope that this is the one that works too. I really enjoyed your blog entry. I feel like you do A LOT... for different reasons but the same respone. I miss you and I wish I was there just if you needed me. I think you are the most wonderful friend and I am so BLESSED to have you in my life!
Julie, that was an amazing post... granted I am just catching up with you guys after a long time, but I feel ya! I didn't even get Christmas cards out this year. Sorry about that. :) I feel like when you realize that sometimes life just isn't going to be perfect you set yourself free to live one that is way closer to it than you could have ever imagined. I will keep you in my prayers. I love you so much, my forever friend. :)
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